When I see you, I feel anger
Anger for the smile on your face
Anger for the way you hurt me
Anger for the things you have taken from me
Anger for ..well this.
When I see you, I feel disgust
Disgust for the way that my heart was shattered
All over the floor that night scattered
Broken to pieces as if it did not matter
Disgust for the tears that were shed
And the moment you walked out that day
When I see you, I feel sad
Sad for the way the our future imploded
Our plans and aspirations eroded
And you sitting there asking for forgiveness
When what you should be doing is giving me back my future
When I see you, I cry
Cry with all of my chest until I can’t breathe
Watching you pack your shit and leave
When all what I wanted and asked was honesty
Honesty…what a obscure concept.
When I see you, I feel guilt
Guilty for the way that I treated you
For the nights I spent compromising me
Giving me and changing me
Unworthy you are with your charm
Giving me smiles while causing harm
And all the while…smiling
When I saw you, I saw you
I no longer see you